The sign

11:40:00 Kikoprincess 0 Comments

I was asking for a sign of what to do in a particular situation. And the situation was growing more and more frustrating and tempting. So I prayed. God give me a sign.

I've never had God answer a prayer so quickly and so clearly. On my walk today, I met with various signs. One of the signs is the the "God loves you" graffiti that I saw which was a good wake up call for me. The second physical sign was when I was about to make a wrong move. Then I stopped. Saw on the side of the footpath, these little signs that indicated what the plants were. No, the tree in question was not in front of the sign. In fact, the tree in the sign was no where in sight.

To me, it was as if God was saying to me, hey look- I'm telling you this is what to look for, this is what it's supposed to look like, and it's not here. Rather than staying right here, right now trying to see the tree/flower that isn't here, why not keep walking, and you might, just might see what the sign is showing you. 

Yes, our God is sovereign- not only in earth moving large scale things, but also in the tiniest signs and details in our lives.

Allowing space with towards moves

10:53:00 Kikoprincess 0 Comments

I recently made a brave towards move. Allowing people into our lives makes us more vulnerable as human beings, but without these moves, it makes it difficult for us to move towards values of relationships, love or trust.

Sometimes I think that it's crazy that Jesus made a towards move for us. Because he loved us so much, he chose to come to earth to suffer for our sake. He gave us a choice. This is the perfect example of love, to do these towards moves- making ourselves vulnerable to pain and suffering, but at the same time, allowing space for amazing things to happen. And it might not happen- while some choose to take Jesus up on his offer of love and eternal life, others flat out say "I'm not interested" or "Please do not solicit" or "Go away". Willingness is about allowing space for these things to happen- either way.

I can never be compared to Jesus in that light, because I'm crazy scared, crazy worried, and thinking that my choice to open up to options is crazy. And (not but), and, at the same time, I am glad that I've allowed space, mostly.

Not about the weight

10:27:00 Kikoprincess 0 Comments

A year ago today, I was 5kg heavier, sad, stuck. It was never about the weight. When it was about the weight, I found I was actually gaining more weight when I stressed about it.

The shift in focus this year was to do with doing more of the stuff that matters to me. Spending time with friends, doing exercise that I enjoyed, doing work that I love, serving God joyfully, eating the foods that I wanted with enjoyment, mindfully.

And as I begun to do more of the stuff that mattered to me, the more I was living in accordance with the ways I teach my clients, the easier it became. And, a side effect was that I did indeed lose weight. I am finally back to pre-phd weight, and with an extra kilo weight loss, I would be at a weight my GP would be happy with.

This wisdom doesn't come from the ACT framework alone; valued actions. You know, the bible had it in black and white long again. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things will be given as well.